Reflections Part I

If I could sum 2011 up in a word, it would be “life-changing.” There’s something wonderful about finally feeling settled, ushered through each day with that everlasting scent of calm. Never anxious with meeting expectations or living to appease, but simply just living – floating through the mess and mass like a leaf on a long breeze.

Growing up, it’s hard to believe that this day would ever come. You watch people bickering, faces drooping and wonder whether a stage does exist – that you are simply content with the world that has been carved out for you. Yet it must… Some of us search for contentment in the face of luxury, derived from monies… But still feel empty, yet there are those who hardly carry a penny but celebrate every breathing moment.

Yet as I sit on my niece’s barbie bed, I am hit with the most eye-opening fact. Life was always simple, always wonderful, but we make it complicated. We spend vast amount of time trying to understand the thoughts of others and not disappoint people, when all we need to realize is that people are different and harbor prejudgements so regardless of what we do, the painting will never be pretty in their eyes.

We spend time trying to change their thinking, trying to churn negativity into something positive that we often overlook the praise, encouragement and support from those that matter.

At the dawn of the new year, one thought crosses my mind… I often contemplate what if, but in this instance… What if not.

Would I have met the love of my life? Would I have had the courage to pursue my passions and stand up for what I believed in?
Would I have known what it is I want and appreciate in life?
Would I have learnt my lesson in certain areas?

After all, that’s what life was like when we were children.

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